Finding Yourself

God did not help me to repair my broken brain at all, not in the spiritual sense. My broken brain is repaired by sheer determination, will and effort. When I took the God route, it caused me to depend on an outside force, which was the seed of my problem in the first place. In order to repair my brain I had to start from the inside out, all alone in a cold dark void. It was only when I ventured there without any outside force to rescue me from the reality that I began to truly heal and understand my own power. It is from this place that I can choose God without obligation.