The narcissist goes after the Solar Plexus of a person. He or she tries to circumvent one's self from one's self and onto the narcissist. The narc tries to dominate your sense of I AMness. The narc wants to control you by confusing you about who you are, what you can do, what matters to you. The narc wants you to have an external locus of control instead of an internal locus of control. The narc wants you to look to them for approval, validation as if they are god. Like a parasite, the narcissist wants to exist on your core of love.
He or she will feed you to some extent, until it has you, or unless it has to. Once you are sufficiently discombobulated internally through gas lighting, silent treatment, victimhood, triangulating, raging, chaos, wounding, intermittent reinforcement, lying, put-downs, insults, commands, disrespect, then the narc has you where it wants you: Detached from self and traumatically bonded to the narcissist's control. Objectified. Lost.
The narc wants to control the agenda and make you fall for whatever illusion they're selling about how you should be, what you should think, what you should feel. The manipulator wants you to believe that you are lowly and inferior and that the narc is all knowing, all powerful and highly superior. News Flash: They are full of horse spit.
Your solar plexus is your center of I AM. The narcissist is envious of this life force in you. The narcissist doesn't have a true self, as it's been submerged during their development. The narcissist is a false self that can only thrive by the supply of your true self, the power of which emanates from the Solar Plexus Chakra. Your place of knowing who you are, what you want, what you can do, what you will do. It's your everything and the narcissist wants to take it from you.
If you are wounded in your SP, then you will be easy prey for the narc. If you do not know who you are, the narc will define you for you. If you don't know who you are, you will feel desperate for definition and you will seek and attract those who will balance your sense of powerlessness. Any obstruction of your sense of who you are, of your I AMness, your internal locus of control, causes a loss of self and turns you into a puppet belonging to someone or something else.
You must know who you are. This happens along your healing journey once you've felt all the feelings and eradicated most of your toxic shame. Once you are rooted through the Root Chakra, you can handle your power... the power found in the Solar Plexus Chakra - Manipura.
The narcissist parent does not teach the child about their own power because a child is so flexible and vulnerable. The parent can use the child's power from birth. The child can become conditioned to give away power through their development--that is, conditioned to give up their own sense of being and instead live to please--exert energy on, worship the external source (narcissistic parent). If you were raised in a narc tank, you may have no sense of your own power physically, emotionally or mentally. You may have no sense of a concentration of your own energy but rather experience the opposite--giving your energy away to thieves. Instead of joy and bliss, you experience depression, low self-esteem and psychosomatic health problems.
It's traumatic to be disconnected from your true power.
If you're maligned in your solar plexus, your self energy becomes focused outward, on needing validation from others (dis-empowering), instead of coming from within--validating the self. (empowering). This is messed up. A whole self comes from within and experiences the world with the five senses--as well as a spiritual component. All this gets stolen when you are wired to care more about what others think than you care about yourself. Your identity becomes enmeshed with someone outside and you can never become a full, whole and complete individual.
But wait! There's hope. You can ignite your own flame and experience your own power.
A way to get in touch with this power is through meditations on the Solar Plexus Chakra. Meditations that refute the inner lie that says you do not exist, that you have no right to exist, or that your existence is futile, useless, worthless, unlovable. Meditations that stand firm in who you are--who YOU really are.
Who you are.
What you will do.
That you can do it.
That you exist.
That you have a right to exist.
If these very simple understandings were not conveyed to you as a child, then you become stuck in a psychological development stage that is codependent. You must complete the developmental process on your own as an adult using your healthy adult voice, mindfulness, awareness, meditation, affirmations, refuting the negative lies, reparenting yourself.
I will.
I can.
I am.
Daily reminders to yourself of who you are, that you are worthy, that you are confident, healthy, capable, successful, strong, powerful.
All this must be coupled with your own self expansion in every area. You must begin to allow yourself to be who you are according to your senses. Smell, taste, touch, sight... Your physical body must be attuned to, heeded, experienced. You must begin to follow the leadings of your deep intuition and start doing things for YOURSELF that are from your I AM. Whatever those things may be. Wherever those things take you. You have to start living from your I AM and reclaim--perhaps for the first time--your Solar Plexus. Your place of self will, determination, power and existence.
You must protect yourself and the only way to do this is to understand your power. It's like lighting the flame inside your heart. The flame of knowing, understanding who you are and what you're capable of doing, being, becoming. WHO YOU ARE.
You must protect yourself from manipulative people who want to control you and exploit you and use you for their benefit. They would love to get you into a place of submission. They will use their arrogant, shape-shifting ways to fool you into blowing out your own inner candle. They will do anything they can think of to knock you down so that you stop existing in your power and bow down to worship them.
If you are in your power you cannot be fooled. You can't be moved. You are strong in who you are, what you want and what you're capable of doing, being and becoming. The narc can't get past you when you stand in your own power and are certain of your own right to exist. You become a repellent to those who would abuse you. You overcome the negativity of others. You realize the value of who you are and this is a show stopper for the narcissist. Light the fire of your I AM.
