Internal Boundaries

I have learned to define Internal Boundaries for myself as follows:

Internal Boundaries: What you allow or do not allow to bother you inside. 

1. What gets you upset? 
2. What causes you to react?

The key to being autonomous and free is to trust your own self, to know your own self and to act in accordance with your own best interests at all times from a place of centeredness. The key to abandoning yourself is to allow yourself to be swept away by the whims of others, or to be manipulated and to have your own will usurped by the desires of others. Good internal boundaries help you to hold onto yourself and not be swept away in the chaos, drama and needs of others.

You can improve your internal boundaries by getting to know yourself and learning how you're feeling at any given moment and to assert your own boundaries within prior to setting limits without of yourself. Internal boundaries can become and often are automatic, but can also require you to heed your intuition. Trusting your gut and acting in accordance with your gut no matter who is demanding you to do otherwise is a good example of having a strong internal boundary. 

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Internal Locus of Control

100 Ways of One Upping

The narcissist is constantly seeking to gain and upper hand in all scenarios as their world is one of power and control. The more power they exert over their targets, the more they are able to control and gain narcissistic supply. 

 

This article will focus on 100 Ways the Narcissist One-Ups their target.

1. Encouraging the target to doubt their own intuition.
2. Direct insults.
3. Backhanded compliments.
4. Bragging.
5. Manipulating.
   
6. Directing topics of conversation.
7. Interrupting.
8. Accusing.
9. Threatening.
10. Punishing.
11. Silent treatment.
12. Unsolicited advice.
13. Encouraging target to discuss problems.
14. Talking about target's weaknesses.
15. Reminding the target of past mistakes.
16. Blaming target for reacting to narcissist's abuse.
17. Shaming.
    
18. Triangulation with third party.
19. Religious speak.
20. Objectifying.
    
21. Withholding affection.
22. Conning.
    
23. Love bombing.
24. Discouraging.
25. Ignoring accomplishments.
26. Interrogating.
27. Dismissing achievements. 
28. Selective availability.
29. Withholding information.
30. Projection
31. Encouraging abuse of target.
32. Gossiping
33. Smear campaigns.
34. Ignoring arguments.
35. Pathological lying.
36. Cheating.
37. Taking without giving.
38. Arguing 
39. Denying 
40. Misunderstanding
41. Creating chaos.
42. Aligning with haters.
43. False accusations.
44. Giving no credit where credit is due.
45. Intermittent reinforcement.
46. Walking ahead.
47. Intimidation.
48. Lack of respect.
49. Walking over boundaries.
50. Doing bare minimum.
51. Recruiting the crowd. (everyone says you suck) 
52. Impression management.
53. Flattery.
54. Social proof.
55. Taking advantage of your kindness.
56. Taking you for granted.
57. Leaving you in a bad position.
58. Pulling the rug on you.
59. Stonewalling.
60. Acting fake.
61. Wasting your time.
62. Not taking accountability for mistreatment of you.
63. Not taking care of your resources that you give them access to.
64. Giving bad advice on purpose.
65. Acting childish.
66. Blowing up and acting out.
67. Name dropping.
68. Playing the victim.
69. Stalking.
70. Coercion.
71. Pleasure induction.
72. 2 face.
73. Selfish.
74. Neglect.
75. Ungrateful.
76. Bait and switch.
77. Catfishing.
78. Flying monkeys.
79. Invalidation.
80. Betrayal.
81. Time hogging.
82. Guilt tripping.
    
83. Berating.
84. Raging.

The goal of the narcissist is to take you off of your center of being, to break down your sense of self, and take control of your being. If you allow people to one-up you, then you are in jeopardy of being led astray and away from your purpose on earth and towards pain and heartache. 

The Narcissist's Insults in Devaluation Phase

The narcissist has a running list of insults ready-made for their target to be hurled at them during the devaluation phase. They use these insults daily to keep the target in a state of constant confusion, and to solidify the target's experience of being "less-than" or beneath the narcissist in every way, and to maintain the Narcissist's Superior role through what I will now call Superiority Framing (see article in this blog).

The insults may be direct or indirect, depending on the strength and awareness of the target. The stronger the target, the more covert the insults must be from the narcissist. Insults are woven into the fabric of every conversation and every engagement with the disordered individual, focusing on the perceived insecurities of the target. 

All of the narcissist's communications are a manipulation to to narcissistic supply from the target. Nothing that comes out of the narcissist's mouth is accidental, as the primary concern for such a person is getting narcissistic supply, or fuel (attention and admiration) from the target. The narcissist's communications center on the following:

1. Promoting themselves as Superior
   
   
1. Bragging
2. Demanding Attention via emotional threats and punishments
3. Body language and facial expressions
4. Attention seeking behaviors
5. Addiction (black hole of all problems)
6. Lying 
7. Story telling 
8. Trance words and phrases
9. Know it all
10. Competitiveness
     
2. Insulting target as Inferior to them.
   
   
1. Discrediting the target's accomplishments
2. Backhanded compliments
3. Withholding
4. Body language and facial expressions
   
5. Lack of reciprocity
6. Gaslighting
7. Lying, deceiving, conning  
8. Creating drama 
9. Unsolicited advice
10. Comparison / Triangulation
    

The sophistication of the narcissist and the quality of the supply that the target provides determines the energy, effort and efficacy of the narcissist's ruse to exert control and get supply.

There is no middle ground, no regular conversation. The target is always triggered to provide validation or self deprecation and defensiveness with the narcissist. The target is trained, and is put in a position to constantly prove their worth and value, prove their view point and thus to build up the fragile ego of the narcissist for a short period of time.

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Spiraling Up - Not Everyone Can Go With You

Along the path to my highest good; the fulfillment of my life's purpose--I make (sometimes) painful choices that are in my best interest but feel like devastating loss. I bravely walk away from situations and people who are unwilling to experience the level of freedom set before us. No matter how difficult this process becomes, I reach forward and walk toward that which honors the higher levels of freedom that my destiny requires.

I know who I am and I know where I'm going. I am not my ego. I am not my age. I am not my height. I am not my social status. I am a woman of purpose who gets things done. I am a warrior born to overcome limiting beliefs and to light the way for others. I want to take as many with me as possible.

This process of letting go can be painful; it takes fierce courage. Endurance. I mourn and feel intense sorrow. I muddle through the loss of some part of myself that once needed the lesson that they brought. I want everyone to be free. I want everyone to heal. I want everyone to grow out of old cycles. 

 I want a partner for this journey, but not everyone is ready. Some are stuck in different levels of fear from limiting stories.

Recently I stood up to a limiting circumstance and turned away from someone I dearly loved because the relationship was incapable of serving my highest good. The union caused me to be bound in a box of limitations that were not my own. I felt stagnant and heavy with whirlwinds of problems that I've already overcome.

I needed this man. I loved this man. The gifts he brought me were so many! So much joy, hope and happiness I found in his arms. His light took my breath away. His love is what I've been needing my whole life. Our future had as much potential as any I've ever known--but there is a caveat. He wasn't ready to ascend to the heights of his potential, and couldn't see his chains. If love was enough, I would have stayed forever; but I am not God.

I cannot wait. I cannot stay with this man in chains.  Only he can break his shadows. Only he can choose freedom. Only he can face himself. I must continue on this journey alone and heal my broken heart. 

I stood up for my peace. I stood up for my future. I stood against that which pulled me down, held me back and caused me pain; generations of cycles that weren't my own. Instead of taking the easy route of impulse, I took deliberate steps to protect myself and honor my truth, no matter the ache.  

In the pain I feel joy because I know that these choices I'm making for myself are leading me to my highest good and God's best for my life. Instead of being stuck in a box of someone else's battles, I'm spiraling up to face my own.